My friend, best friend, my person, my girlfriend, my blah blah person, and many more terms I had heard in the past two years. I also perceive the everyday change in the definition of the term in my surroundings. People can be sorry for what they did, but when it is the turn for you to feel that sorry. It takes a lot of time to put things out of the heart and to move. The one more thing is someone can say sorry again and again, but what can be done is we should accept the feeling and the fact that sometimes situations can go out of control. To forgive someone is tough. It becomes toughest where you have a strong attachment that makes the situation worse. The days you are broken, the time you are crying hard, the urge in your heart to run away from the circumstances always create a void in your heart, and no apologies can fill that, the least you can do is to make yourself understand to let the thing go from your heart. The path is not effortless will take a lot from you to get back to be the same again. The sadism we have and the silence we always demand after a lot of crying is to understand more the situation that we do not overreact, we did not over love, and maybe we start to over control. Once after the whole roller coaster ride of forgiveness, it will provide you with a lot of peace in your heart.
Previous Sunday, I went to a café and was sitting behind a couple where the man told the women that “the habit of stretching fights will break our relation” I laughed and tried to avoid their conversation. The evening when I was coming back to the hostel, I saw a girl who said “will you please stop always making me feel bad for expressing” to someone on a phone call, her eyes are rolling with tears. At that moment the best thing I can do is leave her alone. The night I remembered it was two, I cannot help myself from forgetting the face of the girl and the statements. The bond will remain forever or not, but the statement will remain with them forever. I am no one to tell how the situation can be deal with as it varies always, but one thing I find is no words should harm anyone that let someone doubt their existence, that let someone doubt on their body, that let someone doubt on their dignity and let someone feel sorry for expressing.

Two jewels of Rajasthan Udaipur and Jaipur one known for its peaceful atmosphere, serene, and the other is known for its great heritage with some of unique architecture and forts.

Jaipur has all the franchisee of food in almost every big area and enriched with fast food corners in major of the public places, while we talk about Udaipur, we didn’t get all the franchise and varieties of food even fast food also found in very few areas. Then there come about peace, a healthy atmosphere Udaipur is always first but about varieties of the flawless fort we always move for Jaipur.

“Hawa Mahal” which is situated in Jaipur and one of the seven wonders in the World, it always represents our heritage our custom of the country. To know the facts about our ancestors, it has 10 famous museums where hordes of visitors visit every year, they have a grand entrance which always amaze us by their creativity, which preserve the culture, tradition, rich heritage of our ancestors who have owned it by their hard work. Udaipur also has museums and fort but Jaipur has more options available.  

Jaipur is one of the 10 cities in India which contains metro, city bus, low floor bus so it is very convenient to go anywhere in Jaipur with low charges which is not possible in Udaipur. If we require better and feasible connectivity with other countries, we choose Jaipur as all flights and routes are easily routed to Jaipur. There is surely an airport in Udaipur but direct flights are rarely available.

Both places have their own beauty, perks, and consequences but in terms of traveling Jaipur is more convenient and we can say cheap also, in food it is always mouth-watering and unique flavour’s of Rajasthani food.

At last, I will conclude that for more connectivity, for more options, for variety we always choose for Jaipur and as well for better productivity. 

Why we like “the alchemist” written by Paulo Coelho?

The reason is it firmly shows how our soul and everything we say or do is connects to the universe. It teaches us that what we are looking for in life is actually not outside but is inside. This book made us believe more in destiny and to more follow our hearts because there you will find the treasures. 

It also has some sprinkles of philosophical musing which, makes it more insightful for people. It connects with reality, knowledge, values, mind, and language.

If you enjoyed this book, these are the books which you should read. It is top up with ideologies, values, ethics, theories about life.

“Siddhartha” by Herman Hesse is a remarkable book for young people who are at the beginning of their life journey. This book deals with many questions about the meaning, purpose, pleasure, and wisdom of life.

This book “Life of pi” by Yanni Martel teaches us to not give up, even when things are falling apart, pi never gives up hope of survival and inspires us with his journey.

“The journal of solitude” by May Carton, this book illuminate lights on us to be ourselves, no matter how difficult or strange the situation is our self may prove to be. 

“The unbearable lightness of being” by Milan Kundera, book will develop a better knowledge and understanding of beauty and love. This book will firmly affect little about how we see the world, about our opinions and perspectives of life. 

In “Tuesdays with Morrie” by Mitch Albom illuminates a light on the practice of forgiveness. It shows that we may regret things in the past but, not everything is in our control letting go will not change anything but maybe a better outlook for the future.

These books provide us a broad knowledge about philosophical fiction and places.

Philosophy makes a significant contribution to our conception of society because they think comprehensively and critically about elementary topics like advertising, self-government, social hierarchies, global justice, or religious conflict.          

The covid-19 has affected youth psychologically in both aspects positive and negative.

For the past year, the country is suffering from covid-19 which, affects millions of people. Essentially, it affects the children and the youth of the society, which are the future generation.

 Many people around us have lost their jobs, lost their parents, many had to leave their education for some financial crises. In this situation, many talents are side-lined because of the lack of opportunity. In the pandemic, humans are confined indoors and, social life is over for all.

Serious disruption in learning and working had seen a crucial change in health issues, and the situation becomes worst for the mental well-being of young people. The study found that 17 percent of young people are affected by depression and anxiety in the covid-19 period.

 The mental stability bar is very low for the younger youth between the ages of 15 to 24 and, this pandemic makes the bar to lowest. The people whose start-ups, jobs, and educations are obstructed from covid-19 have double possibilities of affected by depression and anxiety.

Last year exams like NEET, IIT, board exams, and many others were postponed. Several student suicides in India are exhausted from handling the pressure of giving exams and seeing the date shifted, and the time passing in addition, where the condition is moving to worst.

When the morning starts from the metro and ends hustling the traffic spending the whole day between dreams and responsibility suddenly, all stops, suddenly feel like caged in own house, it is safe yet, everything feels like slipping from our hand.

Before the pandemic, every day runs on schedule, the deadlines required to fulfill, the timetable in school needs to follow. The importance of discipline and punctuality is disappearing from the generation where it requires the most for upcoming opportunities and future responsibilities which, is now all faded away in the current situation.  

Yet despite all that, here are some of the positive impacts.

The generation has learned to choose kindness, learned to help others in the time of need. It develops their thought process of choosing humanity over any other existing relationships around us.

The youth come to the frontline for serving free meals to the poor, providing oxygen at the required place, and running organizations, spread awareness using technology and social media which, helps a lot of people to save lives.

At the end, when everything will again start, and the situation will be in control, it will feel new and will believe more in a statement, “it is not the end, it is the beginning of a new era”.

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Middle of the nights,
Anxiousness in the heart,
Fearing,
If I’ll able to fulfill,
I’ll able to achieve,
Is this not, then what,
That sleepless moment,
The heaviness of hearts…
Numb emotions to express,
The darkest time,
Folding hands around arms,
Looking to empty roads standing on the balcony,
We get a knock of growing up,
In the mind of goals and heart of dreams,
We give a reality check to our self,
Where the soul shines, and eyes speak more,
Is the journey will be worth it?
Is the time spend will be pleasing output?
In the darkest night,
The coldest feeling in heart for expressing our self,
This anxiousness is still giving a beat of presence,
But we learn to calm the heart,
Getting to the unconsciousness (sleep) of keeping all the thoughts in the heart.

I took my earphone, phone and my water bottle went to the corridor, it was 3 in the morning, due to restlessness I was not able to sleep so thought of going to the balcony of my floor. As I reached the other side of the balcony, a friend of my roommate was sitting in a corner and didn’t look well, I went to her and asked Simran if everything okay, she hugged me tightly and started crying. I don’t know what to do, what to say. She calmed down after 10 minutes of continuous crying. I gave my bottle after 5 minutes of complete silence between both of us. Slowly I whispered What happens? She started telling me shruti this night is horrifying me. I am in love with the concept of unconsciousness of sleep, but what terrified me the most is to wake up to this same world and struggle every day with myself to pretend to be strong and to pretend as nothing happened to me, that broke me every moment.

She looked into my eyes, and believe me, the pain her eyes show is more horrifying to me. She said I am tired of pretending like everything is fine while nothing is on track. This hostel away from home looks so cool for others who are still there, but nobody knows how tough. When you are alone, and your old wounds still horrified you every moment, the fear of being alone pushed you into a group where you don’t feel to say anything. After two months of break up, now also I am affected by looking at my ex-photos. I am a cage in my mind. I need someone who can listen to me. I don’t want to feel bad for explaining myself, my emotions. After talking to Simran for continuously 2 hours, she hugged me at five in the morning and said I am feeling good, and thank you for talking to me. She went to the room, but my heart was still beating fast seated on the same side of the corridor realized how this darkness of night is so barren and worst for some people.

The incident has turned one year and two months but, I can’t get over the tears of Simran. That balcony and night keep reminds me of her. This incident is the best example in my life that we all need a listener. We all deserve to live free in our minds not to be a cage in these societal norms, and not to reach the standard of being cool according to this generation. Who is the happiest person? I believe in this generation is the person who maintains the peace around him and living according to himself wholly not to be pretending.

In lockdown,
Terrace heard more gossips, Carried more tears,
Moon got some new audience,
And stars got more viewers,
Some minds get open,
Some got new perspectives to see those clouds,
Some adore them; some still blame the dullness,
Some laughs get more genuine,
Some hearts were still broken with old wounds,
Some dishes were still unmade and in some, we get excel,
Some painting was still left unmade; some pieces were now performed,
Windows get more onlookers and the balcony had more coffee dates,
We somehow blamed the lockdown,
Now we beg for the same peace where our heart heal and soul learn to live,
Somehow away from chaos, we find ourselves in those close gates.

shruti sharma

Cold air on the face,
Remembering the days passed,
Memories that flashed in my mind,
knowing that it won’t be the same,
Not same but hoping to be better,
Better to get peace in heart,
While the mind hustle,
Hustle from achieving goals to fulfilling that dreams of second grade,
The desire to visit every mountain to taste every cuisine,
Visit to learn to meet those unique creators,
To exploring life and chasing this self now and always,
So much to say, so much to do, so much to feel,
But now cold air and a cup of coffee is all I want.

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